One Friend by Dan Seals

I always thought you were the best

I guess I always will.

I always felt that we were blessed, 

And I feel that way, still.

Sometimes we took the hard road, 

But we always saw it through.

If I had only one friend left, 

I'd want it to be you.

Sometimes the world was on our side; 

Sometimes it wasn't fair.

Sometimes it gave a helping hand; 

Sometimes we didn't care.

'Cause when we were together, 

It made the dream come true.

If I had only one friend left, 

I'd want it to be you.

Someone who understands me, 

And knows me inside out.

And helps keep me together, 

And believes without a doubt, 

That I could move a mountain:

Someone to tell it to.

If I had only one friend left, 

I'd want it to be you.

'Cause when we were together, 

It made the dream come true.

If I had only one friend left, 

I'd want it to be you.

Someone who understands me, 

And knows me inside out.

And helps keep me together, 

And believes without a doubt, 

That I could move a mountain:

Someone to tell it to.

If I had only one friend left, 

I'd want it to be you.

Letting Go and Moving ON

I just wanted a simple life, a normal life.  I've come to understand that not everything stays the same.  A lot of change needs to be made, but drastic changes are a pain.   I will be able to accept this changes once I've accepted that I need to let go and move on.  Have you ever experienced that in just one snap of a finger your life will change instantly and it's up to you whether you accept the change and deal with it, or you hold on to the past and forever wondering if you'll be happy or not?  I know that we have to take risks but since the pain is still there we are afraid to move on.  We don't want to add additional burden to the pain that we are already carrying.  

Honestly, I'm still hoping that everything will go back the same as it was before.  It's like I wanted to wake up after a very long nightmare and when I open my eyes, the first thing that I'll see is her face telling me that everything is okay and she would never leave me.  But this is reality and I have to embrace that fact that she's gone.  

Someday by Nyoy Volante

Someday you'll gonna realize

One day you'll see this through my eyes

But then i won't even be there

I'll be happy somewhere

Even if i can't

I know you don't really see my worth

You think you're the last girl on earth

Well I've got news for you

I know I'm not that strong

But it won't take long

Won't take long

Coz someday, someone's gonna love me

The way, i wanted you to need me

Someday, someone's gonna take your place

One day I'll forget about you

You'll see, i won't even miss you

Someday, someday

Right now

I know you can't tell

I'm down, and I'm not doing well

But one day these tears

They will all run dry

I won't have to cry

Sweet goodbye

Coz someday, someone's gonna love me

The way, i wanted you to need me

Someday, someone's gonna take your place

One day I'll forget about you

You'll see, i won't even miss you

Someday,

I know someone's gonna be there, yeah

Someday, someone's gonna love me

The way, i wanted you to need me

Someday, someone's gonna take your place

One day I'll forget about you

You'll see, i won't even miss you

someday....

Introduction To Loneliness....P6

Someday....

Now, I’m staying with my parents and they have embraced me whole-heartedly with no questions asked.  I would have to say that I’m lucky to have wonderful parents.  I know that in their hearts they wanted to ask me what happened and understand my situation but they just kept their distance and always kept a close eye on things. 

A week passed and we have been in constant communication.  Sometimes I stay with her overnight or even a few nights.  This would always irritate her.  I don’t understand.  She’s always saying that I’m always breathing down her neck.  I’m too possessive.  I think I have the right to do that since we are still in a relationship.  She would never tell me who she was texting or who she’s with and if I ask it would be a great deal to her and this is the reason why she wanted us to separate in the first place. 

Then one day she asked me to come over because she wanted to tell me something about our relationship.  I was scared of what she will say so I hesitated.  She says that if I don’t come over she would never talk to me ever again.  So I went.

When I arrived, I stayed in the car for a few minutes.  I was breathing heavily, my palms are sweaty and my heart is beating fast.  Is this the end of my 10 year relationship?  Is this how it’s going down?  Can I still talk her out of it?  Can we still work it out?  This are that questions that I can’t answer and it really hurts me not to know.  Everything is up to her.  I feel that I’m at the losers end.  Should I let go and release ourselves of this suffering?  I don’t want this to end, that is what my heart has been telling me ever since.  Fight for it, I love her so much that I’d rather suffer so much than to realize that we are no longer together.  I was crying with no tears for my heart has been hurt so much that my mind is telling my body not to shed a tear.  You’ll have to be strong. 

I got of the car and she met me at the doorstep.  My heart continues to pound my chest with grief and disappointment.  She wanted our relationship to end.  She doesn’t want us to be considered as together anymore.  She wanted to be free of worries about someone asking her where she is or who’s she talking to or texting.  Not explaining to anyone why she never called or what she’s doing.  I’m dumb-founded and I feel the whole world fell upon me.  She told me that for us to work things out and totally experience freedom from a relationship.  She just wanted us to be casual with each other.  Just like very close friends.  

This I knew that the story of us has ended.  I just need to know how to live my life on my own.   My last message to her reads:



Hello, 

Musta na?  I just want to say sorry for doing this but I really have to.  Nahihirapan na kasi ako at sa tingin ko dapat ko na ring tanggapin na hindi ka na babalik sa akin.  Sa tingin ko nagawa ko na lahat para bumalik ang pagmamahal mo sa akin, or kahit yung pagpapahalaga man lang.  Pero mukhang hindi na.  I just need to accept the fact that I have to continue life without you.  I hope you're happy right now with whom ever you're with.  Hindi ako galit pero malungkot ako. 

Wala akong girlfriend kung yan ang iniisip mo.  I'm still hurting and every night is just to hard for me to overcome.  Kaya madalas late ako umuwi dahil ayoko nang dumaan yung gabi na maiisip kong wala ka sa tabi ko.  

Kahit makalimutan kita dahil ulyanin na ako (sana dumating na yun) alam kong sa isang sulok ng isip ko may isang XXXXXXXXX XXX na nagpasaya at nagbigay kulay sa buhay ko.  

I hope all the best for you.  I still love you and will never stop loving you.  


Your former Bebe